By Ingrid Johns, Oct 11 2020 05:17PM
I do not normally open up much about this:
Here it goes.
I'm lucky to have recovered from Bulimia and Anorexia combined ( yeah you can have both together).
I just wanted to talk about the treatment that helped me. I will not go in to detail about my illness itself I'm only giving you a quick overview about what I did to tackled it(not an easy journey).
First you need to understand this pathological illness is about your emotional perception of yourself, it isn't about food.
Yeah nutrition plays a big part but it isn't as imperative as many make you believe it is.
I started my path to recovery when I was around 13 years old ,so I wasn't always willing , it wasn't easy either.
The treatment which I attended consisted in having to spend the whole day, Monday to Friday 9 to 5 in a sort of club house with people who are dealing with similar issues (everybody is different).
You have 3 Doctors who specialize in eating disorders recovery. (1xClinical and 2 xtherapist )
A typical day would be arriving and having breakfast with the group.
Breakfast as all the other meals, was tailored specifically for you after a physical and psychological check up.
Then you'll do an activity ( compulsory) but you learn how to make something. I did not see it as a positive at the beginning but perseverance and patience was the lesson, I was a teenager nothing motivated me.
At around 11:00 in the morning we would have a snack and then it would be the time to gather and talk about how you feeling as well as helping your recovery pals.
The levels of recovery in the group would vary from new people to the ones that were about to graduate so to speak.
The treatment would be 4 year on average. We were also a good mixture of backgrounds.
I think, this self help group talks were the ones which make me the person I'm today... You are heard and you listen without judgement... your darkest thoughts and feelings will surface and there always would be someone who identifies with you and is willing to give you advice and alternatives in how to change those thoughts or habits while replacing them with better ones.
Once this assembly finished we would have lunch. It is important to mention that everyone was cleaning their own crockery after every meal(building up discipline).
As lunch would be considered a "difficult time", another assembly would be conducted right after it.
With Bulimia and anorexia Food (amongst other things) is the addiction so Food would trigger things within ourselves.
After the second assembly it comes the other snack, we would do another activity mainly crafts. Tea and then home.
As Homework we needed to list on a diary what we have eaten during the day.
Points that I did not mention are: you weren't able to choose or serve your own food.
You cannot flush the toilet after you have gone and talk about food during the day was a no no,except at the group talks.
As you get better, you would start taking more control about things mentioned above and going to the treatment would become more of a visit where you can help people and share your experiences.
This is a very brief recap of what I did for my recovery.
It was a way to realise that I wasn't alone. It taught me how to let go and pick up the pieces in an orderly and loving manner and then allowing me to take control and be responsible about my feelings, choices and the food and attention I put in to my body.
The most important thing is that I started loving myself and helped others do the same.
Sometimes it is so scary seeing all of these fads and misinterpretation of an illness that gets worsen by the horrible emotional pain you have when you are suffering from it.
I believe that in order to recover from Bulimia and Anorexia you need to do it in a social environment as some of the symptoms are isolation and secrecy. This is not an illness or an addiction that can be sorted with a diet. Or by yourself even if you are willing to get better.
Please notice these are my thoughts and my experiences. Nothing is written on stone. It's not my intention to offend anyone.
Open for questions and please know...that I'm here to help...
If you like to know more about my recovery journey...or share yours Let me know...
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